Traitor

Nothing like a bomb (figurative) being dropped to a) ruin a day, and b) change your course of action.

I mean, I will replay today over and wonder, if I had woken up when my alarm went off-- would have answered my phone? Will something as small as that have changed the way today went?

I realize now, that today has already happened and well on it's way out (I mean it is 6pm my time). So there isn't a way around that. BUT I can however be completely proactive about my future.

I can say with 10000% certainty, that I saw my Ex too soon, let him back in too soon and from here, I can see the error in my ways.

I guess I wanted to get around the sadness and the anger, so, I let myself do it. I let myself let him back into my life. Against mine and everyone elses better judgment. I did it. I guess I thought it would be better. I guess I thought things had changed. They hadn't. I am finding myself in a situation I was in before. Only, different. Like... We are not together, and there are no allegiance to one another...

And you know maybe it is better that way....
No one wants to a friendly fire incident... so just eliminate the friendly, keep the fire.